Posted under Merlife
Being unable to feel hatred is a strange thing. When I see and hear people spitting venom over something I am puzzled because if there has been a situation that would make many people want to rip some ones head off, it usually leaves me either annoyed and mad, or empty and disappointed. The difference between the two feelings is, I believe love. If I love the person I feel disappointed, if it is a stranger I feel annoyed.
I can understand hatred as an emotion, and perhaps I am capable of feeling it but have not yet found anything that burns my soul so badly as to trigger the feeling. I understand the Jew hating the Nazi, as it is such a soul searing thing that it is an acceptable emotion, but fail to understand the racist claiming to hate, based upon a colour or creed. It is not an understandable emotion.
I am currently feeling a sense of empty disappointment at something that occured last week and even though I know that I will come round and hold no grudge or ill will, I also know that I need time to feel badly done by. Some would call this sulking. I call it healing.
Love and peace
Mermy